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So obviously I haven’t updated this in two months.  Oops!  The last month is completely because of my crazy finals schedule, but before that I just… I guess I feel like I have changed a lot in the last few months and somewhat regret not documenting it but I’m mostly happy with my decision.  This post is going to be very rambly, so you might choose to skip it if you have no interest in my personal life!

As anyone in my real life knows, me and my very long term boyfriend broke up a while ago.  I was a complete disaster zone for a couple of weeks because we had lived together for quite a while blah blah I thought I was going to marry him yada yada.  So anyways, after I got over the initial shock and awe I started to realize how unhappy I was.  We had comfortable, routine love, and I don’t think that’s something I ever want again.  I want someone who makes me a little crazy sometimes, someone I can’t predict, someone who changes [in good ways] all the time so that I can do the same.  And it wasn’t necessarily that HE was ohsoterrible or anything, I just realized I had become this completely submissive person.  Someone completely comfortable not trying new things or doing anything spontaneous and any shred of creativity I had went completely missing.

So it has just been a very happy transformation back to the person I have always been in the past, someone positive and creative and a little vulgar and very silly and kind of weird and outspoken at the randomest of times.  But I have been unsure of how I want to approach this blog.  Whenever friends in real life talk about visiting my blog and talk about my outfit or a craft projects I get really flustered and embarrassed and I don’t know why because I am proud of most of the things I post on here.  So I need to… work on not being so self-conscious about nothing!

Sorry for the ramblings on and getting 500 times more personal that I usually am, I just felt like explaining why I haven’t posted at all and such!

Um… in other news, I have brown hair now!

Happy Sunday